living the DREAM.... yet still MISSING my family!!!!!

Loneliness has overwhelmed me... Day and night images of good memories overtake my thoughts, although the memories are not always that pleasant, i can't help but miss my family...

Don't get me wrong i'm sOo much happier now, i feel as if my life has gain a true meaning everything is starting to fall into place. i'm doing what i have always wanted to do, i only wish i could share my happiness with the two most beautiful women in my life laura and amanda wingfield. I can just remember how laura used worship her glass managerie it was as if nothing else in the wolrd mattered, she would stare at them as if they were the most beautiful things, sometimes she would sit and just talk to them, it was amazing to see how such simple objects could bring so much happiness to someone's life... laura didn't have any friends her glass managerie was basically all she had, what hurts me the most is that i left her to struggle with my my mother. Sometimes i feel as if i let my family down just like my father did, i left just like he did...

Laura i hope you have forgiven me i know i disappointed you, but i had to follow my dreams in order to be happy. Back at home nothing seemed to please me i tried to stick around just for you and mom, i just couldn't anymore i felt as if i was compromising my happiness for yours and mom's happiness. We all need to feel happy at least once in our lifetime, do the things we have always wanted to do and just feel like we can fly. laura you are a beautiful young lady with a good heart, you deserve to be happy so be strong and always find happiness in everything you do.

My world seems close to perfect now, i see beauty in nature, i wake up in the morning to a bright sun which to me portrays a brand new me i am TOM WINGFIELD, i have never felt more alive!!!!! My job is soO great i enjoy working here and the pay is really GOOD it's nothing like my old job. Huh!!! Laura remember where i used to work and how much i used to hate my job Oh i still remember how boring it was to make shoes all day long, every day doing the same thing over and over again... it's all different now i love my job and i have never been happier....

MOTHER!!! i'm sure you must be wondering what came over me to just leave like that, but the truth is that i didn't like working in order support the family, no one did anything to help ease the weight that was put upon me and that made it impossible to pursue my dreams... You always thought you knew what was best for me but the truth is no one lives in a dream anymore mom it's about time you wake up from your dream and realise that our lives will never be the same anymore. my advice to you is that you STOP trying to change laura into someone she's not, she's beautiful just the way she is and she has found happiness in her glass managerie, don't try to control her the way you tried to control me because you might lose the only family you have left...

I have found true happiness in what i do now and i encourage you to find your true happiness...
All i have been doing is i dedicate my life to work, because that's what i love the most!!!!